Your blog is so generous, the way you share every bit of yourself in it. Your readers can't help but feel they know you!
I see a woman who has her hands full with the daily business of life, but who still desires to work on her physical self and someone who's hard on her self at times.
I feel like you've got the recipe for success in both weight loss and life.... Perhaps right now, when life is a little crazy and your time is in demand, it's hard to devote as much effort as you want to in order to achieve your goals for yourself. But it's my feeling that when you DO get that time, all that you've learned from the 30 difficult years - combined with your ability to focus on the task at hand - is going to pay off in spades, and you're going to achieve some personal goals that will leave you feeling very proud of yourself!