yea i know i feel so bad, tired, fat, ugly, very unattractive,
i know what to do , i just think i have a addictive personality. and once i start, i do not stop.
i eat myself to sleep almost every night.
This is my slow time of year with work which also makes it worse.
i lose wieght. i lost 32 pds in Sept. then gained it all back.
like self defeat!! or something.
if i buy cookies , i have to eat them all till they are all gone.
the whole thing is a big merrygo round for me.
I have changed alot of things in my life for the good , but this one is so hard. and i get so mad at my self.
really, chips, milkshakes, cookies, all that is the killer.
i have no self control that lasts.
i would love to be healthy and look better for myself and my husband. i would love to feel awake.
I don't have alot of time to cook except in Jan. Feb. March.