chocolate

by Cindy

yea i know i feel so bad, tired, fat, ugly, very unattractive,

i know what to do , i just think i have a addictive personality. and once i start, i do not stop.

i eat myself to sleep almost every night.

This is my slow time of year with work which also makes it worse.

i lose wieght. i lost 32 pds in Sept. then gained it all back.

like self defeat!! or something.

if i buy cookies , i have to eat them all till they are all gone.

the whole thing is a big merrygo round for me.

I have changed alot of things in my life for the good , but this one is so hard. and i get so mad at my self.

really, chips, milkshakes, cookies, all that is the killer.

i have no self control that lasts.

i would love to be healthy and look better for myself and my husband. i would love to feel awake.

I don't have alot of time to cook except in Jan. Feb. March.